| Hello World, i know lately, my posts have nothing to do with my life but it has something to do with my heart. Today, i'll post something of which that can explain to me the days i've been missing. This would be long i guess (: Wednesday and Thursday
"Standing on the rooftops, everybody scream your heart out" You should know what i mean. Wednesday, we suppose to be doing our group project but almost half the group did not turn up, it was saddening to see that people don't really regard how others feel, that really makes me wonder. Fustrated, i left school. Quarelled with the one i love once again at night. On thursday, school was usual, tried to make the best of everything, i really tried. I'm just not able to. Left after school to meet my dad at PS, grabbed a really quick lunch and went for the WORST of the dental appointment, this is the point when my life starts to hurt, even my teeth feels the pain. Of all pains, wounds and cuts i felt, this was really killing me, the dentist straightened my top and i wasn't allowed to change colour, it was plain silvery-grey and below, i wanted black but he gave me maroon. Like wth. The pain was unbearable. I cried, but i belive crying can never solve anything. Friday
Was another hurtful and painful day. School was usual but the sight of seeing him, it really hurts me deeply. My heart is just bleeding profusely. I just can't pay attention in class nor even tell myself to study. Went to Dover, intending to have lunch but the moment i saw him, my heart just aches that i lost my appetite, went back to school for GB, i didn't wear Full-u and therefore, scoldings and nagging from our one and only monster teacher. Grrr. GB was seriously boring but i mannaged to pull through. Went home, decided to take a Cab, waited for so long and i saw him again, this time, with a girl i never thought he'll even stand with or now, walk with! That girl has always yearns for us to break up as soon as possible but now? What on earth are they doing together, they went for Carousel and even sat together, what more, i just couldn't face reality, listened to my IPOD on the way home, i just couldn't help my tears, all the love and sad songs shuffling on my playlist, my heart no longer can take it. Showered and immedietly slammped myself on the bed, hoping for a better tomorrow. 
Saturday
I woke up early that morning, parents new something was wrong with me, they couldn't bear to see their only daughter turn into a nightmare. They brought me for an early breakfast together with my Aunt at AMK hub, we talked alot and i mannaged to explain the pain i'm feeling now. I just wanted to get drunk and forget all my misery, but dad told me, that wasn't a way to solve problems in life, we just have to face it. Went to a hyper mart to do some Grocery shopping, at one point when i was getting my cereals and strawbery bars, they played a song called "All Out Of Love" by Air Supply. I was thinking, why must all these problems just follow me like a shadow. Decided to do proj, that day, but little did i know, one of them could not come AGAIN. Pissed off, i just felt i was missing something, the love i had from my creator, i mean, my life have been turning upside down ever since i stopped attending church and started to swear alot. Grace decided to ask me for the 5pm service with her sister and friend. Met them at Town and went for service which ended at 8. Service was great and really touched me, although the Sermon did not apply to me. Went to Fish and Co. for dinner with Grace, mannaged to unbottle out my feelings to her and i felt much realived, we walked around from Centerpoint to Heeren and then to Wisma. Really enjoyed laughing and cam-whoring with her (: Thanks buddy.                   
       
  
Sunday
Grace and Veronica came over my place to do our last minute proj. We cam-whored too, hahah, i'll let the pictures do the talking.                   
This Week: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.
Monday, had to meet Ms Ong for some GB punishment with Amanda, Michelle Choo and Grace. Had to wear our GB uniform =/ Tuesday, F&N was fun, we made Popiah but i had to have many unsuccesful trial before i could make an acceptable one! Oh, i had fucking CLB with that fucking teacher, hate her to the core. Gonna complain against her. That Bitch. I wasn't allowed to go for the cultural performance due to that bitch. Our song was taken from the show Honey called I belive, Grace and i tried to remember the steps last church camp when we had some Hiphop thing, Hahaha. Dad picked me up and got good food from Astons :D I had steakkkkk! Wenesday, was the day i really needed time on my own. I shall not mention much but i think this the end of me being over sensitive and reliant. I think i should take things seriously, i felt i was stabbed in my heart and by the back by two different person. I just can't imagine anymore hurts. It's really unbearable. I just want an ordinary life, am i asking for too much? I really didn't know she was that mean to me, i have always regarded her as a good friend and accepted her as a clique member although i've known her this year only, i've trusted her so much and this is how she treats me? I finally understand someone's true colour, although it's too late and stupid of me to trust someone like her. At least i belive i'm able to pull through this. For the guy that i loved too much, i think many things should been realized when the time was there and not when the time is over. I think i was wrong to fall for you too much, and getting back all these, my heart is just falling into pieces and just bleeding too much after reading all those Smses. I just don't understand. Today, it is just too hard for me to face back to reality, i just want a simple life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuck.  
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